。

我很想爱他，但是眼睛在说谎。隐瞒比较容易吗？免得关系变得复杂。

好多好多原因阻止了我向前踏，却找不到任何原因对你有感觉。

说过不要烦，谁骗得过自己？

哎哟~ 这次可糟了！

Undeniable

I screwed my 2011 badly.
1st I got myself into the MOST unsuitable job which ate up almost RM2500. (yesdon'task)
Then I had the stupidest car accident, which cost me RM900 for the repair and insurance. (wheregotpeoplebangcarinatrafficjam?!)
3rdly, I cut my hair. I love my short hair but I can't deny that I had a big loss of my financial because of it.
4th, I should have had listened to him to not rush myself to start my college life. Right now, momma and I struggling about the fees every semester.
I make myself like a crazy lady, to run both side of study and work.
I knew I broke momma's heart a lot this year, I tried my best to be better and better.
I cannot put the blame on him for making me feeling miserable most of the time.
I choose the path to walk.
Money is not everything, but without money, YOU ARE NOTHING.
One of the biggest problem I'm facing right now is, being procrastinate.
I can't help myself to keep delaying things that need to be done.
I thought life will be better when I give myself tons of tasks, because thinking of you is a nightmare for me.
Maybe I just made myself worse, I should have know my limits.

I had no idea what am I typing, but I just need somewhere to let out my stress.
I know I can't rewind time and make a better decision ... I don't know laah. aihhh
In a nutshell, I can't deny that I hate 2011 that I love and did everything at such a bad timing.
Sorry, if this post annoys you. -___-

kthxbai.

Demotivated.

For the past days, I woke up feeling empty. 

Not sure is it the side effect of sleeping under air conditioner, it makes everyone never wanted to wake up. -_- 

I still prefer and love sleeping under the fan, healthier and feeling more energetic waking up. 

Somehow, I'm not sure what am I feeling these days. 

I felt the emptiness deep down inside of me. It's demotivating me. sighh How ahh ? 

My First Time

Everyone have their first time for lots of things we now known as experience.
I am literally known as the FFK Queen after a few last minute pulled out and rejections. I know it myself.
Sometimes, some things, we just have to cooperate with what we Chinese people said 人时地利 .
Just go google laar okayy . -_-
I used to be over considerate for others and had myself got into uncountable troubles.
People around me always told me to be more selfish, I think I am learning and getting cope of it.
Selfish as in love myself more, I deserve what I deserve.
lolololl ... what am I crapping!
Back to topic
I really felt sorry for last night incident, but there's few problems I need to concern of. At the end, I am just a gal, right?
So I went to The Curve myself last night. Thinking of what should I do once I got there.
Thought of going to Ikea for their awesome pawesome meatballs.
On second thought, why not go for a movie just myself? :DDD
and the #mostawkwardmoment happened

Ticket Seller, Pondy
HI. What movie, miss? :D
errr ... Real Steel!
Okayy! Berapa ticket? Satu ????
Yes!
REALLY SATU JE ???!
*wtf!* err .. yes. Not for myself. #lies
O_o you selalu satu orang watch movie?
*wtf x2* No, I said not for myself. #liesagain
Ohhhhh ... okayy. Enjoy the movie, sorry kalau I talked too much.

Obviously, you just need to ask me what movie I want, I pay you & just give me the ticket!!
Okayy .. I think he knew I was lying all the way.
Because the movie starts at 7 25pm & the time I am buying was 7 10pm -___-
I was sooooo #kiasu that I kept trying to hide the truth but it ended up quite a #loser situation.

Because of that stupid seller, I went all the way to Watson to get snacks for movie -___- HAHAA!
Yes, I am damn #kiasu x2 that I was so scare that the seller spot me buying popcorn.

I am not actually that concern of the stupid buying ticket scene, but WHO will be sitting beside me!
If it's a man, then I confirm GG.COM #mostawkwardmoment. BUT! It was a elder lady sat with me :DD
Relieved max, because I kept texting Elain how scare I am. :x

These are why I never NEVER wanted to watch movie alone. People will stare at you like you're such a loner, and you staring back at everyone with pairs or groups.

However, after this first attempt of it, I kinda like watching movie alone. I get to concentrate the movie and how it been filmed *influence from Film Studies*. All I need to improve is, be more confident when they ask you are you watching movie alone, I will just have to say "YES! Any problem with that?" ; and remember the way to my car -__-
I felt like a Big Girl now. : p

By the way, REAL STEEL.
You will regret if you do not go watch it !
The movie was set in the near future, where human boxing turned into robot boxing, the top sports game. But most of all the bonding between father and son makes the movie ROCKS!
It was so touched, I almost cry but I did not because very #kiasu x3. -__- facepalm.
What if the auntie look at me ?!
AND and And !That kid, Max (Dakota Goyo) in the movie , (Y)

He turned me ON. (^ 3^)
He is such a born-actor! Better than Bieber -.,-

Ahhh ~ This is now my most FUN first time, what's yours? :D

P/S : The biggest mistake you could ever made is being too afraid to make one.

Back to projects and assignments. 

PEACE OUT!

人来疯

可能，你要感谢我们的遭遇让你找到了你的她。

要继续幸福，让我觉得自己被抛弃不是没价值的。

打从某天起，好像跟你没那么好了。
见面少了、电话也少了；
孤单的时候，忍住没找你。
我亲爱的朋友、并不是你做了什么，而是我的故事变复杂了。有些话不知道从何说起、不如不
说；
有些秘密只能藏在心底，独自承担。
不想对你说谎，更害怕你痛心的责备。於是只好假装淡忘了你。
其实
你们一直在我心裡。

长大了，不再像以往一有事，就必须靠肩膀。

End of September

I am awake from September.

went to Arthur's Day.

pose like you are SOMEONE :p

on the way there was jam, jam, and JAM! 

so boring can die -_-

Invited Elain and Jason with me :) 

Can you actually believe that I forgot to bring my tickets ? 

It was so epic that everyone in the car almost wanna cry because we were halfway jammed at Midvalley.

HowToGoBackTake ?! 

luckily Benjamin was there to the rescue ~_~ 

Thanks Benjamin, thank God. 

#fake celebrities. 

There were a lot of them , though. *grins*

Andrew, the only blogger I met that night and took photo with. 

I kept contacting the rest but the line there was just ... #shit.

It looks happening but not so happening, actually. 

I only enjoy the moment when Miss Nina performing.

There's a few ladies gone wild that night.

Some of them dance and jump like a hyperactive baby; some of them grind with other guys like a boss. o_o

Didn't get to even drink a sip of Guinness. #phailed max.

but the fireworks in the end were so pretty. 

We were stuck in the car trying to get out of that place though. lol 

Thanks Adverlets for the tickets, although I never brought them to the concert :x

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Went to e@Curve the next day.

Astro Battleground in the house yoo!

I am a very big lover of dancing, nothing can change this even you. :)

I am voting for Katoon Network, Oh My Goodness and Coming Soon.

LA Sister is good too, GalPower always ROCK !

Oh Ohh ! I like Second Floor too as it means 2nd version and only two person of Floor Fever. 

lolololl .. what a concept. 

went to hunt for lunch and found this lovely Taiwanese restaurant.

3rd day after haircut. Still not used to it.

Ynn was wearing the short Tee I gifted here that day & I didn't realized it at 1st.

Cheesy Pork Chop Set

起司炸猪扒套餐

Taiwan Eight Precious

台湾八宝阿婆冰

Bamboo Pumpkin Bun

竹笋南瓜包

if you spend more than RM20 then you can get a bowl of shaved ice just additional of RM3!

Trust me, it worth! 

so big bowl, we were so bloated.

I rated 7/10 stars for their food :DDD

I'm sexy and I know it :p

went back for Prelimenary 2.

The whole event were so awkward but I managed to pull it off. 

but the #mostawkwardmoment when a stranger talk cock to you and your ex is just opposite.

It was just ... awkward max. -__-

Make sure Coming Soon was safe for the next round and quickly went home to celebrate Nya's birthday :)

Remember to watch Astro Battleground 2011 ! 

It is MORE exciting and better crews than the past, maybe they improved. 

P/S : Smile. It's contagious. :)